Thursday, August 03, 2006
this week has been depressing so far. failed all the tests that we got back. i seriously felt demoralized and depressed. but, i decided, i'm gonna work hard and pass all the tests coming up. anw, can't let those depressing results i got from term tests affect me. anw, term test holds a very little precentage. err.. like 5%. not sure. today, had biochem lab test. can't say it was fine or anything. i thought they will ask things like whether we should wear lab coat in lab and all that kinda stuff. instead, we're asked questions like "what's the molarity of..". gosh.. luckily, i remembered the formula for molarity from pipc. speaking of which, we have a pipc quiz tml. good thing is that it's at 8am so we don't have to worry about it. just get it over and done with. the bad thing is that it's at 8am. means, we have to wake up early. yucks. i thought poly was about sleeping late and going to school whenever you felt like it. anw, after biochem lecture, was heading out of school, then guess who was sitting right outside ASc?? HIM!!! but the sad thing is that, he was alone with a girl talking. the only comforting thing is that they are not sitting together, but opposite together and they are not cuddling and whispering sweet nothings into each other ears. arghh.. bad timing as it got me thinking. 'wad was he doing there? who is that girl? does it mean he's attached?' questions questions running through my mind. questions which i have no answer to. sigh.. reality check: what are the chances of us having any form of contact? as mentioned before, no chance at all unless i pluck up enough courage to add him in msn. then, how am i gonna introduce myself? like he asks me who i am, what do i say? sometimes, i just think too much. i hate feeling like this. i sound so obssessed, so despo, so love-sick. i hate being an obsessed-desperate-love-sick freak. it makes me feel so vulnerable like without him, i can't live. i am not man-dependent. i won't die without him. double sigh. am i going out of point? am i even who i think i am? arghh.. questions but no answers. i should start asking questions that are more useful. err.. like why H-bonding can only occur when only F, O, N is directly bonded to H. why can't it be anything else? then again, i may sound like joseph. gosh.. the semestral-exams-is-coming stress is getting to me..
4:10 PM